I haven’t posted in a while. The reality is that it is really hard to keep up on a blog when you have so many things going on. I am so passionate about this website and I am always thinking about ways to spread the word about invisible illness. Which means that if you find this blog and want to talk, I am ALWAYS here!
I have been thinking about blogging for a couple weeks now. But my pain has been stopping me. I had been trying to display a positive light for people through my writing on here, but I don’t feel very positive right now. It is hard to be positive when the pain is making everything difficult. I am sure many of you have felt that. I struggle because I want to be positive. I want to not let the pain hold me back. But sometimes it does and that is hard for me.
My boyfriend has really helped me during this time. The other day he said something to me that really helped me. He said, “I feel like the reality is that people with invisible illnesses can’t always positive about how they feel.” He is so right (at least in my case). I let the negativity hurt me, but I really just need to focus on the fact that I can do this. I can survive this.
Do you have someone in your life who helps you through the tough struggles of your invisible illness? Having someone to support me and talk to about how I feel has seriously been better than any pain pills or doctor. Easing the pain has always been my main focus but now I have realized the emotional pain is just as important to focus on. My pain was really bringing me down to the point where I didn’t want to live anymore. I never wanted to end my life, but I just wanted so badly for the pain to end. I tried to find ways to bring me hope and help me be positive. That is part of why I started this blog. I knew that there were so many people out there suffering to and I wanted a chance to talk to them. Find a chance for us to all help each other and stand together.
I guess my inspiration today is that it is OKAY to not feel positive. We have to feel all the emotions that come with our invisible illness. But when you are feeling down, find a person to talk to and someone who brings you joy.